Love the skin you’re in
I have always had a weight problem. I am a tall, big bones German girl who is NEVER going to be a waif. It’s taken a long time to accept it, and I still struggle with my weight, but I have learned to appreciate the positives of this Amazon-ish body I was born with.
Back to high school, I hid behind my “fatness.” It was so much easier to rationalize that boys didn’t like me “that way” because I was overweight. Not because I was negative and moody. Not because I was sarcastic and wenchy. But because I could stand to lose quite a bit of weight. What a load of crap.
Luckily I have grown up. Sure, I still have insecurities about my body – but I also have a much better appreciation for what my body is about. I am never going to be supermodel skinny. But over the past few years I have lost 40 pounds and I am in the healthy zone. I have about 15 more to go and I will be golden.
But I still won’t be skinny. Because skinny just ain’t me.
I love the term “Glamazon!”
One of the great things about getting older is the self-acceptance that comes with it, for me anyway and it sounds like you, too.
Ditto Annie.
It’s odd that when we’re at our physical peak, we seem to be programmed to not like our bodies.
It’s not until later that we are able to accept (and — dare I say love?) our bodies rather than yearn to improve them.
I thought I commented already? Hmmm.
There’s a delicate balance between wanting to be at peace with it and still keeping it healthy. I struggle with this, as you know. But more than anything, no matter what the number is on my clothing, I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin.
I have recently had some similar thoughts as Annie, that when we are older, we do learn to accept our bodies more and not castigate ourselves for not being as tiny as Heather Locklear. Acceptance is healthy because then we can focus on actually being healthy without superimposing an unrealistic “ideal” onto ourselves.
I am proud of you for learning to love your body with its strengths.
Such a struggle; for more people than not. I’m still struggling with all sorts of weight and body issues, but as I get older I find that I’m a little more accepting of myself and a little more comfortable in my own skin. Not completely comfortable yet…but getting there
Great post. I hear ya sister.